The thing that killed me about magic mike, and I mean killed in a goodish way, was that scene where he tries to get a loan for his business and can’t. He has all this cash! He has product (I think it was ugly but that’s neither here nor there)! But it doesn’t fucking matter because he and his income don’t fucking exist on paper
as someone who struggled/s with the same thing: of not existing/mattering, of people questioning your right to anything, to everything, from basic things like health care to more basic things like existing, of things being harder because my paper trail is only about two years old, and I worked really really hard to make it happen, it was like a punch in the stomach, seeing my helpless frustration onscreen.
It occurs to me because I’ve been denied for two apartments before they even ran a credit check. The only thing against me at that stage is my income/source of. Okay then.
The income/employment thing is so stressful on paper. I want to look respectable and write “waitress” but they asked for net wage and that’s ultimately way below poverty line with my hours, so I’m going with independent contractor.
I get that you don’t want to surprise rent to the indigent but what if I just give you 1200 cash and we call it a deal
I’m also having this itch to get dramatic:
IMAGINE MY INCOME. It will not exist if you do not imagine it.
Kat sent me a text loaded with emoticons saying I should go see Magic Mike this weekend if I get the chance. I didn’t read the Tits and Sass review until just now so I didn’t know that Channing Tatum is in it–maybe you don’t know this about me but my crush on Channing Tatum since 21 Jump Street has been big and real and beautiful–so instead of seeing that I went to see Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter with my ex. Which was both appalling and amazing and probably better in 3d but was fine to see for 5$ on a rainy Saturday.
I just sent Regan a text loaded with capslock begging her to go see Magic Mike with me but I guess she doesn’t feel the same about Channing Tatum. Too bad, that field trip needs to happen.